My body shaming experience!

I hope you are all enjoying the weekend! You may have seen me mention about this on twitter last week but I wanted to share with you all my body shaming experience

So, on Saturday night last weekend, the husband and I decided to go out for a few drinks. This then eventually led to us arranging to meet a friend and go clubbing (as you do when you’re child free for the evening!!!)

I was having a really good time, we’d found a booth and were dancing and drinking the night away! During the night, I went to the loo on my own but there was a huge queue out the door and into the corridor. I stood in it chatting to other girls around me, like you do!

I then heard someone behind me say something like “wow she’s short”, which I am and because I wasn’t wearing heels I couldn’t fake it either. I am comfortable in my height, so when they said this it didn’t really matter to me.

I turned around and standing there was a really tall young man. We talked for a bit, his mates joined in the banter with him about how tall he was, but never once did I remark about this or laugh along because I don’t body shame others! Eventually, he got down on his knees and asked me to come and dance with him. I politely declined and joked that my husband would not be happy about that! He asked me again and I responded with “look, go have a dance and find someone your own age” because he was quite a young and even if I was single, way too young for me!

Then something weird happened, I left the conversation and moved further into the toilet, as the group of boys were walking away I heard the young lad I’d been speaking to shouting “I didn’t want to dance with you anyway because you’re a fat b***h” to me!

I was shocked, as were several of the women who were stood with me. One of them even shouted after him to call him out! They all told me it was ok, and that I wasn’t fat and how pretty I was. All I could think was “but I am fat and that’s ok”. I didn’t dare to say it out loud though, I felt ashamed of myself and went into the cubical to pee!

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Being a working mum …

This is something that I struggle with, I feel guilty alot for working full time instead of being there to do everything with my daughter.  I wanted to do a post on this and talk about what it is like being a working mum and how I cope with the work/life balance!

When my daughter was born, I was a full time University student. I went back to complete the final year of my course when my daughter was just 3 months old, I managed to get my degree and then start work straight away! I think this is why it has never been a struggle to work and be a mum for me because essentially I have done it from the very start.

That said, there’s something niggling that just gets me lately though, when I see just how much other mothers do wit2012-07-17-15-00-27h their children, I feel like somehow I’m missing out and so is my daughter.

You see, I don’t get up everyday and take my daughter to school, I get up and I leave about 6 am for work and my other half takes her to childcare at 7.30 in the morning and then she is taken to school from there. Likewise, I’m not there to pick her up when school finishes at 15.15, again she goes to childcare and is picked up around 6pm when we are both home from work.

Sometimes, I feel like this means I’m not good enough, like I’m failing my daughter in someway because on the odd occasion where I can take her to school, she gets emotional. I feel like it’s because she doesn’t want the moment to end because it hardly ever happens.

Then I feel I don’t know many of the other mums, which sometimes makes birthday parties extremely difficult for me. I suffer with anxiety anyway and find it really stressful in that type of scenario, where I feel like everyone already knows each other and then there is me!

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Ten thoughts that go through my mind while in Primark

A bit of a lighthearted post today. I bloody love Primark. Not always amazing for us plus size babes, but I still adore it, so here are ten thoughts that go through my mind while in Primark!

1. Am I in Primark again, really? My office is a five minute walk from the Leeds Trinity Store, so I am in there alot just browsing and 9 times out of 10 I buy something!

2. OooOOoo New Lines, New Lines! There is always something new to look at, I walk around thinking about what I would wear things with and how much everything would look amazing in my wardrobe!

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